Last week I became very much aware of my answer to that question, and I am definitely the introvert appearing to be extroverted. I might strike as the outgoing gal but I let a lot of fears take over me; which keeps me from meeting people. So why be both instead of one? That is what I want to know! I know that as a disciple of Christ I am supposed to be extroverted - because I think it is my duty to go be fruitful, meet people and make disciples out of them! There shouldn’t be a reason for me to be afraid because I know the Holy Spirit will speak through me. Only one conclusion left. I’m not afraid of speaking the Gospel (never will be) I become that introverted person whenever my personal emotions come into the picture. Somewhere down the line I notice I become too focused in getting to know the other person, that I have forgotten for them to get to know me. I’m still trying to wrap my mind around being both and at times think it doesn’t make sense. What is exactly that I am afraid of? Of my fears being know to later be used against me. I know its such a selfish mentality, I am keeping my guard up and I am being a friend to others, but not letting them be a friend back. There hasn’t been a past experience that has made me lose trust in people, this idea has always been a part of me.
My worry is that by slacking from my part, I am not being the disciple or making the disciples God wants me to be. Since it is a priority to be an Extrovert and only that, this is what I am doing about it. Matthew 28: 19-20 states clearly my command. So by closing myself off, am I not being the mentor I want to be? Of course not.
I am taking action!
1. Prayer
2. Since Prayer does require action, I want to focus on Jesus style of mentoring and learn how boldly he carried himself when meeting people. I am not asking “What Would Jesus Do” I am asking how did he do it!
3. I am making 2 Corinthians 9:7 my motive. God loves a joyful giver, and I want to give my all to friendships without being afraid to do so.
My question to you: Are you the extroverted or introverted person? And is it keeping you from anything?
If you are me, come join me to become a fearless person in your walk.
